The Countdown

19 days and counting, I still need to book a hotel for my first day  and get some last minute things but other then that..... I'm ready. Ready for change, ready for adventure, ready for whatever comes my way! House-sitting this week has given me quite a bit of time away to think and kind of be on my own and I think I'm gonna be okay. There will definitely be some adjustment but I can still phone home and skype. Technology is getting so advanced that even if you're a country away it can still seeem as if you have family and friends nearby. 

Emotional Good-byes

My first goodbye. I wish I could say that I bravely shook my grandpas hand and that as I went to give my grandma a hug, tears weren't threatening to let loose.... Unfortunately that was not the case. As I shook my grandpas hand and heard the words, "See you in June" I felt them building up, the unwanted accumulation in my tear ducts that make me feel completely out of control and at a loss for words. June, June.... not even the beginning of June. But June.24th, almost half a year until that date. The conversation in the car that lead up to the hug made the tears inevitable.
" We'll miss you alot Brianna, it won't be the same without you" my grandma says
"Yes, but it will be even tougher for Brianna...." replies Grandpa

It will be difficult for me in quite a different way than for my family. They have everyone else there and although they'll think of me, there are many other people to occupy their thoughts.  I will probably find plenty of time in the first month or so to fill my thoughts with all the family and friends that I am missing.

My grandparents are off to Hawaii  for 2 months, time that I wouldn't have seen them even if I had been home. However it seems different... when they get home, I won't be there. Its going to take me time to adjust to a different country and I feel better if I don't dwell on all the uncertainties. I will have to rely on God in a completely different way then here. He is all the certainty I will have and it will be a good, different, probably a bit overwhelming of an experience.

I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13

Miss you

Members of my family seem to continually ask this question, "Will you miss us?", YES of course I'm going to miss everyone back home. I just know that when I do different things and meet different people I will think about a specific person that I would have liked to share the experience with. Therefore I will write about them for the people I miss back home who I want to talk to after my exciting adventures!! Those people know who they are and if you read something and think of something that you would want me to hear.... COMMENT!!! :)

Off to Australia

So there is less than a month left before I leave to go to Australia.... my thoughts.... for once I have no idea what to expect, I can't even picture anything, which is quite something for me. This is the first time I'm going to be starting school with no friends, no family closeby, in another country. Pretty different than what I'm used to. And as I write this I feel fear creeping up, but that won't stop me because God is with me, calling me out of my comfort zone. He promises to never leave or forsake me and I know that there are no exceptions to this :)

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